And now my mom's in the hospital....
She's having horrible intestinal pain. I was with her in the hospital for so many hours, but had to go home since I have work in the morning. I'm hoping my dad and bro will go and keep her company.
There's no way I'm getting any sleep tonight. It's just one horrible thing happening after another.
For those of you who don't know, let me fill you in:
1) My dad has been in and out of the hospital due to multiple strokes
2) My family is suffering from money problems since my parents can't work
3) I'm the only one working and I barely make enough to pay for all the bills. (I have a less than part time job 3/hr a day, 5 times a week. And I only make about $70 a week....)
4) With all the running around I do every day, I only have time to work on plushies on the weekends, without interruptions.
5) My brother doesn't want to help pay for necessities. If/when he gets jobs, he spends it on himself.
6) With all the stress I'm going through, I'm losing a lot of hair and gaining a lot of weight. (If you have me added on facebook, this is why I don't take new pics of myself. I'm a fugly mess right now T_T)
7) I was hoping that I was able to sell all the jewelry I made on my Facebook page
, but only managed to make maybe 3 sales. I can't make my jewelry cheaper because it would defeat the purpose. I also have premade plushies on my etsy page
, but no luck...
I don't know what to do anymore. I can't find a better job, I'm stuck with what I can get. I can't control what decisions my brother makes, I can't help my parents get better. I feel completely useless.... Everything I do is not good enough..